Finally! I have received an offer for full time employment with a non-profit. Their mission is helping people and changing lives for the under privilege and the disabled. It has been a long journey for me of seeking meaningful work through an organization or self-employment.
Perseverance. Not giving up even when there are times when you want to.
I kept working as an independent contractor for small businesses while sending out resumes for full time work. There were numerous interviews and rejections which at times led to feelings of lack of self-confidence and an enormous amount of stress due to the lack of income.
It is our egos that lead us down the path toward unworthiness and depression. Move forward one foot in front of the other, keep your mind busy with learning and gaining new skills as well as enjoying a walk or exercise and time with people close to you. It does take time sometimes a bit too much time however you will get there with perseverance and patience and faith.